Our frakking year 2007 continues. I don't know why we thought we could outsmart it by getting pregnant. Maybe we wanted to prove that such a thing as a cursed year does not exist.
Wrong.
While Jacob was undergoing various exams, I found that I had started bleeding. Since I was in a good German hospital, and the one in which I gave birth to all my children, I went to the maternity ward right away. The dreaded result on the screen: No heartbeat, too small for dates, deteriorated form. The nurse hugged me and held my hand. I've known her for five years now, and she held my hand while Benjamin was born at 18 weeks three years ago. The only good thing about this all was that it happened while I was right there, in this hospital. Everything else sucked big time. I had a D&C the next day. Now I'm home, hiding in my room while my brothers who came immediately take care of Jacob. Oh, and we still don't know what's wrong with him.
I'm not superstitious. If I were, I'd hide in a hole for the next seven months. Hell, I might just do that.
Gosh, Claudia, I'm really sorry. I hope you recover soon from your operation and that the hospital gets down to the bottom of Jacob's illness. Sending positive vibes across the border to you and Jacob.
Posted by: Kinuk | June 16, 2007 at 12:05 PM
I have been away & was wondering of you yesterday. I am relieved to hear any news of Jacob. If I were to choose against one of my children, I would one I had not yet met.
My best to you; it seems a blessing you are surrounded by those both family and familiar. Sincerely, M.
Posted by: m. | June 16, 2007 at 02:23 PM
I'm so sorry for your loss, Claudia. I can't imagine how hard it is to have to go through this without Doug, too. My thoughts and prayers are with you all.
Posted by: Carrie | June 16, 2007 at 02:41 PM